About Me
- Name: Shadow Dancer
I am Shadow Dancer. I have been referred to as a healer, medicine man and shaman. But I only see myself as someone in touch with what is going on around him and can listen with clarity to what the world and nature is saying. I wish to share this with all.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
The dagger remains
The dagger remains
Never to be removed
Painful torment
The blade twists
Malicious smiles
Slowly, teasingly
The dagger withdraws
Agony subsides
Breathes of life
Gasping, clawing
Longing eyes
Search for the light
A lost voice
Tries to speak
Jailers’ watch in
Sadistic revelry
A long forgotten name
Forming on the lips
And the dagger
Plunges even deeper
It remains
Never to be removed
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Why do I feel like this?
Why do I feel like this?
Lost and alone
I have found the perfect love
Yet has it found me?
Everything was going well
You wanted to be with me
And I with you.
Then something happened
I wanted to be secure
You seemed carefree.
All hopes went away.
I tried my best
And I saw you cry.
Then I did right.
But now
It does not work
I do not feel your need.
Where once was sunshine,
Now resides rain.
I went from the light of love
To the Darkness of confusion.
We discover and feel,
We clear and light
Still I have fear.
I am farther away
I feel it.
Extend your arm
Light the Darkness
Bring me back
I want to be your love
I want to be…yours.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Believe
A touch
A touch will last forever
A memory
A memory lives through eternity
True love
True love goes on till tomorrow
But we
But we do not always believe
Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Maybe
Maybe one day
Somewhere in the future
We will open those doors
That we each have
Someday,
We will know each other
In an open and caring way
But for now let’s not allow
The obstacles
Block our way
Let’s care just as much
Now as when the
Doors are gone.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Fate
Ancient and aged
I watch from my prison
The world before me
Young and vibrant
I turn back to my cell
Dark, cold, dismal and empty
She use to visit once
Her depth of fear
Pulling me in
Till that fateful moment
That dire second
When all was lost
Imprisoned
Sentenced
Condemned
The inquisition
Has kept her there
Where only I see
Where only I know
Release me
You will go on
Life will engulf you
As much as it has forgotten me
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Demon Lover
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The rain has ended
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Haunted
Saturday, April 19, 2008
To Sharon
My feelings mixed
Do I lleave you alone
Do you want to be kissed
I'm so alone
What can I do
All I knowIs
I love you
Then as I
Held you near
I found a love
I could not fear
We kisses once
Then we kissed twice
Am I willing to make the sacrifice
Is it wrong
Or is it right
These feelings that I fight
In your eyesI see so much
I know you need
Your loving touch
We both hesitate
Not knowing what to do
Then I reach out and embrace you
As we sat there
In each others arms
I found a love
That nothing can harm
But this is wrong
And I pull away
You look at me
I can not say
You'll never know
How much I love you
I'll never find out
If you love me too
But on that night
Between us, a sin
It happened before
Love returns once again
I call it a sin
For that is what it is
You have a lover
Your heart is his
And yet not a sin
For my love is true
It already occurred
No matter what we do.
I wrote this years ago after holding her for a while. Years later she was murdered. I never actually said "I love you" to her, until years later while leaving a rose.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Welcome back.....
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I am back
So prepare yourself for more journeys into the mind of a madman.No that is incorect. Very incorrect for I am no longer a madman.
The truth is....
Welcome into the dark recesses of a dark mind. Welcome back to where reality ends.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
To Her
How I hunger
You who knows the Darkness
You who feels the hunger
You who robs my being
Cold Icy Frozen
Glances in the night
Black moments in your arms
My strength is yours
My cunning your tool
My devious nature
Your slave
Enwrap me within your wings
Take me back to Darkness
Chain me once again
Take me home.
Her
Once again she confronts me
Chilling caresses sting my face
Memories of once was
Dreams of as then
Arise and surround me
She draws me in close
Her breath on my neck
Laughing
Taunting
Pulling me over the precipice
Falling Grasping Clinging
The want for more
The fear of want
Realeasing I plunge into
The inky abyss
Enveloping me she guides
She protects She shields
All for nothing
As the evil creeps in
Try as she might
I dissappear into the night.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Is it true that people only read the short shit???
This is short.
It is shit.
Did you read it???
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Moonlit kisses
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Whispers of fiends
I was drifting, losing the fight to remain alert. I called out for help, for some assistance. None came. My friends were gone. Family miles from here. My lover missing. They had taken her from me. Forced her from my arms. Droplets of blood fell from my fingertips. Joining the ever growing puddle at my feet. I never saw them coming. They just seemed to appear next to me. They circled around me. Three of them. Walking around me, they actully seemed to glide in and out of my view. I asked who they were.
"friends" they whispered. I looked closely at them, searching for some recognition, something that would make me see somone I knew. Nothing. No discernable features. "we are here to help you" the sound drifted to my ears. They continued, " Do not worry, all will be fine. She is in good hands. You know she is. Someone will be there with her. They always show when they are needed. They are always there when she needs them. You know that. They will help her. They will make her happy. If you do not believe us, go and check. We know. We know since we have been there. We were like you. It happened to us. It created us."
I screamed my protest. I screamed that she was differant. I screamed that she would not forget me. I cried that she would be back for me. I sobbed that she would remember and find me.
"Are you sure?" they hissed.
"She has forgotten," they continued, "She is not there. She is being taken care of. You know that. She is busy. We will show you. We will take you there." They took me by the arms and lifted me up. We slithered throough the crowds unnoticed. We crept up the stairs and to her door. "Knock. We will show you." I gently knocked, waiting for her answer. "See," they hissed. I knocked again.
Silence from within.
I pounded, my fists leaving dark black red crescents in their wake. Sliding down the door I watched as each red crescent started to cry. So did I. They lifted me up. "Come with us. We will help you understand." They led me to the roof. They showed me my world. "See this is the world. The world you created. You made this all happen. You made it all happen to you. You caused it. You are the reason for all the pain. You drive her away. You make her fear. You make her hurt. So others will be there for her. She is young. She will be fine. There are the others."
I cried. I crumbled to the ground growing weaker. I told them that she loves me. I explained how differant it was. What we had is unique and beyond their scope of understanding. They were not there when we met. They did not know what we had between us. They did not look into her eyes as I did. They had not seen the future in those eyes. They could not understand the thrill of feeling her hand in mine.
They could not know.
"But we do know," they hissed, " We have been there. She is as beautiful as any, more beautiful. She is talented,smart and witty. She is the dream that you have always wanted. Where is she now? She is surrounded by the others. She is with one now. We know that and so do you."
I pleaded for them to take me to her.
I pleaded.
I begged.
Let me see her. I need to see her. I need to talk to her.
No sound from the three. No motion. Images floated through my vision. Ghosts of the past. No .. ghosts of my past. Taunting me. Closing in on me. Their words cutting me like the knives before. I bled more. I became aware of the puddle below my feet. I bellowed at them to take me to her . They lifted me once again and took me to her door yet again.
I pounded.
nothing...
i beat the door ... blood sliding down to the floor...
nothing.
I cried out for her.
Nothing......
I looked to the wall.
I moved to the blank wall. I started writing.I had to leave her a message. I wrote in my blood. She had to find me.
She had to get to me before it was to late.
I knew she would.
I knew she would. ....
I hoped she would. ....
Would she?
They laughed. I collapsed.
It was ending.
I knew it. I could feel it. The life was ebbing from me. IT was almost gone. I could hear her now. She was with another. She was in the others arms. I tried to cry but could not. I screamed as i felt everything I cared for being ripped from me...
I turned to the three and hissed. .............
I was with them. The three was now four. I hated them for what they did to me but knew I would soon do the same. We floated there above what was left of me.
She came up the stairs.
She came home and found my remains. She cried. She wanted me back she begged to the heavens. She saw the bloody note on the wall. The three had not read it... they tried to keep her from reading it. They were helpless. She stood and read. The three started to writhe in agony. She continued to read and they screamed in pain. She sobbed as she read the last line and smiled. The three were bleeding great torrents of life force.
I was there watching.
I was there winning.
I had become the greatest inflictor of pain.
I was tormenting my tormentors.
I would go on.
And they ,with each word, faded to nothing... she stood and read again..... "My Darling one. I have learned what torment is and have suffered for it. I can not go back and undo what has happened to me and now suffer the cuts I have caused. Some Have tried to make me doubt you. Some have whispered lies to me. Some have shown me how you could be untrue to me. And I, like a fool, listened to it all. I know now that this is all untrue. I hope that you will always remember that I trust you and love you. Remember that you are my dream. I will always be yours. Never listen to the whisper of fiends. I love you and will do so throughout all eternity."
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Can you help me?
“How can you help me? I am not sure; I think that I may be beyond help really. I am not sure. All I really need is for someone to just listen to me when I am in a bad mood or depressed…. mostly when I am stressed and pissed off usually. Is that so hard? Just listen…. I will rant for a while…I may even yell but it won’t be at you…. it is me yelling at the world… the unfair, cold, cruel, unjust world. I need to get it out of me or else I will sit there and internalize it and let it fester…. It will slowly and quietly eat at me, but if I have to I will…I do not want to burden you or anyone with my problems…after all they are my problems not yours…. You just want to help…but then there is my past … my fucked up past…and I live with the scars of all those psychological wars with others and myself… I just want someone different. …Someone that really does listen …does not judge and does not belittle me or my feelings… I know what I may say when I am in a bad mood sounds petty and stupid but at the time to me it is a big deal… a big life halting deal…. After I rant I will realize that it is just something that will pass, or something really stupid…. But for a while it will mean a lot to me…. I will want to fight the world … I will want to change space and time… I will want to be the outlaw that does good by destroying something…. how can you help me… just understand me…. Just try ….I am not hard to read sometimes… I just need to be read and listened to like a book on tape or cd… I want to be loved and understood a little….I am weird and I know it but I do like to be heard sometime…I am a small voice in the universe and most of the time feel smaller still…I am attacked and made to feel inferior… my talents questioned…I just need a little reassurance or challenge to make me see otherwise…make me see what I can do ….. what I have as my odd talent… create a dream or nightmare… make reality end for me… help me make my dreams come true for me and my love… make it all become something beyond belief… help me realize how happy I can be….just love me for who I am….. just little ol’ insignificant, insane, dreaming, me.”
She looked at me for a moment.
I continued, “oh and chili cheese fries and a coke to go.”
Friday, March 31, 2006
Fake boob thoughts
Monday, March 20, 2006
You can't play Russian Roulette w/ a semi-automatic
I hope I get to stay with her. I hope we are okay. I hope it works out this time. I just hope.